Well as you can see my car was totaled almost 2 wks ago. It was on Monday Sept. 2nd, Labor Day, that I was involved in a hit & run. As I was turning onto my street at my apt. complex the car behind me smashed into me. I saw them slow down then take off! Luckily there were other witnesses who called the police & ambulance. I spent most of my time w/ the paramedics but the witnesses gave their testimony to the police.
Admittedly it was a rough week, but in a weird way it was nice to have been so busy at work b/c I didn't have time to focus on it or have a pity party. To this day I haven't cried about it. No doubt I will... in time.
For now, I have a new car as this one was deemed a total loss and only good for salvage. It will take some time to adjust & trust myself driving again.
I think what bothers me now is how little emotion I've been able to release. I'm, always on guard for when the next shoe will drop & therefore don't let my guard down for a second. Even though I know I need to to allow the emotions to run their course. Between dealing w/ car insurance "stuff" & medical insurance "stuff"... none of which I am familiar with or understand, I feel lost. I am very uncomfortable w/ such emotions, well ok, any emotions. I don't know what's normal in these situations nor to I feel confident when purchasing a car. They will always find a way to get you.
So clearly this has been a huge help to my nerves. NOT!!!! But I am doing the best I can. I can see it now, at some random point in time, for no reason, I will start crying. I won't know why, just balling my butt off.
However, this whole experience has taught me that I was SOOOO SOOO lucky! I walked away w/ bruises & a sprained neck & left shoulder. It could have been so much worse. That is huge. Plus, I really do feel sorry for whoever it was that hit my car & sped off. That guilt is something they will have to live with.
To that end I AM truly grateful for not being as hurt as I could have been. Tonight let's all be thankful for at least 2 things in our lives- even though there are many more things in our lives to be thankful for!!!
Peace,
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